I felt so guilty towards my precious baobeiix. Even when I'm alone sometimes, i think that I've made her so lonely. I'm truly sorry my precious.
I kept so many things to myself, i didn't really know how to express my words out. I'm so afraid that i will say the wrong things sometimes, but i just feel so blessed whenever i see a smile on your cute little face.
You always made me feel so great no matter rain or shine. Never one day in my life i can miss chatting with you. I just feel that something is lost the days we missed chatting on the phone, talking lots of crap.
Precious, sometimes I'm truly sorry for making you so alone. I will spend more of my time with you =D. My love for you will never ever change.
Love for eternity.
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Just the two of us.
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Santa clause is coming to town~~~
O my, its another Christmas once again...
Santa Santa, Thanks for Christmas present you gave me for the second year. For the second year, I'm spending my Christmas with my dearest Baobeiix by my side. All i want for Christmas every single year in my life is just to have Baobeiix by me.
I always had the best present with Baobeiix by me. =D
Wow, i got a wonderful card of Baobeiix. Two stick mans, and words of love... I really feel the same way towards you darling. I'm seriously so into you, so in love with you. Nothing can pull me away from you. I really love the wonderful times we had together. I love you, for eternity.
Thanks Baobeiix. You're the best present Santa had for me this Christmas again.
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O my, its another Christmas once again...
Santa Santa, Thanks for Christmas present you gave me for the second year. For the second year, I'm spending my Christmas with my dearest Baobeiix by my side. All i want for Christmas every single year in my life is just to have Baobeiix by me.
I always had the best present with Baobeiix by me. =D
Wow, i got a wonderful card of Baobeiix. Two stick mans, and words of love... I really feel the same way towards you darling. I'm seriously so into you, so in love with you. Nothing can pull me away from you. I really love the wonderful times we had together. I love you, for eternity.
Thanks Baobeiix. You're the best present Santa had for me this Christmas again.
Loves 051106
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My guilt is rising every single day. I'm just such a loser in time management. I lost to "TIME". Why?
Why can't we have more than 24 hours a day? I just felt so bad not able to accompany darling. My own things keep coming along and i just neglected her for the weekends. How? How can i describe this feeling? I just feel so.......
No words is able to describe what I'm feeling right inside me. I feel so bad, such a loser.
I'm really sorry, truly truly sorry my darling. I will make time for you as soon as i can. I'm seriously sorry. =((
I love you.
Why can't we have more than 24 hours a day? I just felt so bad not able to accompany darling. My own things keep coming along and i just neglected her for the weekends. How? How can i describe this feeling? I just feel so.......
No words is able to describe what I'm feeling right inside me. I feel so bad, such a loser.
I'm really sorry, truly truly sorry my darling. I will make time for you as soon as i can. I'm seriously sorry. =((
I love you.
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Holidays started today, while everyone is cheering for it... I'm worried. I don't really want to go back to school so soon. I'm afraid, real afraid that my results would turn out so bad. I didn't really put in loads of effort this term test. I'm seriously filled with guilt.
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Seems to leave my blog alone these few days... Its the term test period and while everyone is mugging hard. My brain is shutting down. Monday was Maths paper, oh gosh, i dun even have the confident to say i will clear that paper.
How about Tuesday? Net fund. I'm confident, its a serious goner. Argh! My holy god. Give me the power! I don't want to have 4 supp papers coming to me at the end of the semester. Anyway, Friday is coming really soon.
Its the end...
But...
I just have so many things in my head...
School is really making me go mad...
How about Tuesday? Net fund. I'm confident, its a serious goner. Argh! My holy god. Give me the power! I don't want to have 4 supp papers coming to me at the end of the semester. Anyway, Friday is coming really soon.
Its the end...
But...
I just have so many things in my head...
School is really making me go mad...
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Something set me thinking for a moment.
Hawy, Jinx and I were sitting at the pavilion near my house. We were approached by a stranger and he started taking his seat and chat. He talked about his life, how difficult was he living in Singapore, how difficult is it for him to find a job...
He even said that he wanted to commit suicide a number of times but was eventually alive again. I can't believe my ears when i heard him saying he wanted to witness his suicidal mission. A shiver was really casted down my spine at that moment of time.
That person eventually went up saying, "I think I'm confident to do it now." "IF" i were to eye witness that scene, my nightmares would never ever end for years. God gave everyone of us a life, we have one life, live it.
Every path of survival is carved out by our own hands. Fate cannot bring you anywhere for sure. If you just choose to end your life like that, is it fair to the people around you? Is it even fair to God who gave you a chance to be on planet earth?
Some beings didn't have the chance to live past their twenties or even their tens. If you can live through your thirties, why is it that you do not cherish your lives like what others do?
This taught me a real hard lesson. I learnt how precious was life at the same time, what life is going to bring us in the near future. I learnt how difficult life was going to be in Singapore in the near future. The high standard of living, the competition for jobs, everything...
I will work hard to carve out my path of survival.
Hawy, Jinx and I were sitting at the pavilion near my house. We were approached by a stranger and he started taking his seat and chat. He talked about his life, how difficult was he living in Singapore, how difficult is it for him to find a job...
He even said that he wanted to commit suicide a number of times but was eventually alive again. I can't believe my ears when i heard him saying he wanted to witness his suicidal mission. A shiver was really casted down my spine at that moment of time.
That person eventually went up saying, "I think I'm confident to do it now." "IF" i were to eye witness that scene, my nightmares would never ever end for years. God gave everyone of us a life, we have one life, live it.
Every path of survival is carved out by our own hands. Fate cannot bring you anywhere for sure. If you just choose to end your life like that, is it fair to the people around you? Is it even fair to God who gave you a chance to be on planet earth?
Some beings didn't have the chance to live past their twenties or even their tens. If you can live through your thirties, why is it that you do not cherish your lives like what others do?
This taught me a real hard lesson. I learnt how precious was life at the same time, what life is going to bring us in the near future. I learnt how difficult life was going to be in Singapore in the near future. The high standard of living, the competition for jobs, everything...
I will work hard to carve out my path of survival.
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Term test is starting next Monday. O my, studies is making my head blow. Almost everyday i overcome the burning temperature and walk to school. The temperature is really making me go bonkers. Who knows one day i may faint of heat stroke...
My energy level is getting lower and lower as each day passes by. I get so tired so easily nowadays. I wasted money today =( . I took a cab to school early in the morning. $5.60! Just from my house to school. O my, why did i have to wake up late in the morning!
I'm really really tire out.
My energy level is getting lower and lower as each day passes by. I get so tired so easily nowadays. I wasted money today =( . I took a cab to school early in the morning. $5.60! Just from my house to school. O my, why did i have to wake up late in the morning!
I'm really really tire out.
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