For the very first time, I pondered about my future.
I thought of what life offers me in 3 years time. In the blink of an eye, 3 years is going to pass soon. I thought of my future job, I thought of marriages, I thought of simply the word, 'Future'.
When anyone asked me, what do you want to be in future. I would say, I haven't think about it.. Yet deep inside, i thought, what can i do?
I felt family support when i went to my grandma place today. I saw for myself how united can one big family be, and how nice is it to have a family gathering. Although it may be once in a million years, but i really feel it was worth it spending my time there.
I'm just being so random here.
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The working environment is seriously kut lat.
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Huat zai! Tomorrow JAPANESE TEST. OMGS.
Whenever there is a test tomorrow, i would always tell myself.
*Inside me
- AH boy ar, must study ar
- AH boy ar, cannot play computer ar
- AH boy ar, must get good results ar
It carrys on and on and on and on ......
I will be studying, but only for 15-30 mins where I flip open my textbook, and then...
*Inside me
- Wa knn, so difficult, study also fail, haiya go play awhile then say la
ISH! Study session ended. Next morning start to kan jiong,
*Inside me
- Wa na bei, siao liao la, ji pai hong kan.. Really must pia to memorise.
This is how I always approach my quizzes. HOW SIA? Like that cannot work !
Whenever there is a test tomorrow, i would always tell myself.
*Inside me
- AH boy ar, must study ar
- AH boy ar, cannot play computer ar
- AH boy ar, must get good results ar
It carrys on and on and on and on ......
I will be studying, but only for 15-30 mins where I flip open my textbook, and then...
*Inside me
- Wa knn, so difficult, study also fail, haiya go play awhile then say la
ISH! Study session ended. Next morning start to kan jiong,
*Inside me
- Wa na bei, siao liao la, ji pai hong kan.. Really must pia to memorise.
This is how I always approach my quizzes. HOW SIA? Like that cannot work !
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I'm back. O my, I'm just too tired to do blogging. Im busy finding a blogskin when i bumped into this. Credits to the desginer who desgined this. This blog template is simply wonderful. =)
God knows, I started to have illusions of the future. My future job, my future wife, my future family, my future home. Wow, it just goes on and on. It just bothers me when I think of the future.
Certainly, I envy "AH XIA KIA", or "AH XIA KIA" with appearances. Their past life deeds must have been so great that they are born with this status clinging on to them. Ya, I work for what I want, but the amount of jealousy still fills a place in my heart.
Anyway, one thing I can be proud of myself, is that I have a wonderful family , wonderful friends and of course A wonderful girlfriend ( although she beats me up sometimes).
Its just fun being with her seriously. I don't know how bore life would be without her. I liiiiub you, ah bao kia. LOL
God knows, I started to have illusions of the future. My future job, my future wife, my future family, my future home. Wow, it just goes on and on. It just bothers me when I think of the future.
Certainly, I envy "AH XIA KIA", or "AH XIA KIA" with appearances. Their past life deeds must have been so great that they are born with this status clinging on to them. Ya, I work for what I want, but the amount of jealousy still fills a place in my heart.
Anyway, one thing I can be proud of myself, is that I have a wonderful family , wonderful friends and of course A wonderful girlfriend ( although she beats me up sometimes).
Its just fun being with her seriously. I don't know how bore life would be without her. I liiiiub you, ah bao kia. LOL
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I had been too nonchalant in handling my stuffs. I really had. I thought of myself first before others. I dissapointed someone real badly, I can feel the piercing in her heart. She had always been the one, always there for me when I needed help.
Yet, I can still made her so dissapointed. Being at such an age, I can still do these things wrongly, I can still not think of any consequences before I do anything. Everytime things happen, then I would start to think back. I would start to think where gone wrong, what gone wrong.
Fuck myself...
I would want to change but action speaks louder than words. Nothing I say will retrieve the dissapointment you had in your heart, I broke that precious little heart once again. I'm truly sorry.
I seem to be not good in handling my emotions, I blame myself for that.
Darling, You're my one and only. I love you.
Yet, I can still made her so dissapointed. Being at such an age, I can still do these things wrongly, I can still not think of any consequences before I do anything. Everytime things happen, then I would start to think back. I would start to think where gone wrong, what gone wrong.
Fuck myself...
I would want to change but action speaks louder than words. Nothing I say will retrieve the dissapointment you had in your heart, I broke that precious little heart once again. I'm truly sorry.
I seem to be not good in handling my emotions, I blame myself for that.
Darling, You're my one and only. I love you.
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